The devil always now would like you to belive that God has abandoned you, that you are now all on your own, you are tottaly helpless as well.. which is farthest from the truth for us in Jesus Christ.
Very recently I found myself unexpectedly in great pains, and I realy even was even unable to breath, I expected to die very shortly even due to a shortness of breath any moment, and so I was taken to the local major Hospital ASAP.
I was even surprised as to how many people next I had met wished my luck, I thought must be in a very serious trouble personally with my heath. In this real life situation you do find your faith being severely tested, doubts arise as to what is happening to you too. As the doctors review my medical, heart conditions I started to have fear, fear of the unknown now too, I saw a larger darkness creeping over me too.
As I thought of the fact that my life now may be ending, it seemed to me my own life, plans, ambitions were a total failures.. So I asked Jesus to forgive me for not living up to his full standard, will for my life there. I next shortly heard Jesus speak to me directly and say that he had already forgiven me even for all of my past sins, he Jesus loved me, and the proof of all of tis was that he had even called me to be one of his own, called me to be His pastor, to preach his truths to all.. He Jesus in love had set me already now for his glory and work, I had no longer been living my own life even for decades but His.
As I continued to lie in the hospital, when negative doubts, despair would try to set forth I now would quote the Bible verse in (2 Tim 1:7 KJV) For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind… and they all would disappear..
As I continued to lay there in the Hospital I asked now God to give me a great revelation, promise from his word that I could now stand fully upon.. I was surprised when God gave me (Psa 23:1 KJV) A Psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
I next had told God I had expected amore significant verse.. and God relied Psalm 23:4 was very significant for me.. “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil”: a verse I could stand upon, I mediate on all the verse now as well..
Next God told me about his verse.. (Psa 37:23 KJV) The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way. 24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand… so I rejoiced over that as well.. I was now peaceful, comfortable that God was fully lloking after me, during the rest of my ten day hopistal stay.. My stay was filled with peace, Joy, and my full trust in God to look after me.. and after that I was discharged back home and once again able to live again a full and normal life..’
I also next also in the Hospital had continually stayed on this hymn as well which brought me great joy too.. I am Thine, O Lord, I have heard Thy voice, And it told Thy love to me; But I long to rise in the arms of faith And be closer drawn to Thee.
Draw me nearer, nearer blessed Lord, To the cross where Thou hast died. Draw me nearer, nearer, nearer blessed Lord, To Thy precious, bleeding side.
Consecrate me now to Thy service, Lord, By the power of grace divine; Let my soul look up with a steadfast hope, And my will be lost in Thine.
O the pure delight of a single hour That before Thy throne I spend, When I kneel in prayer, and with Thee, my God I commune as friend with friend!
There are depths of love that I cannot know Till I cross the narrow sea; There are heights of joy that I may not reach Till I rest in peace with Thee.
I was lying in a Hospital bed next to a person who had a controlling, dominating Spirit, he liked to do all the talking, and to be worshipped all the time as well.. he was a very evil man and I have met many others like him in real life..So what I did I bound the evil spirits in him in Jesus name, refused to allow them to communicate with anyone else, or to each others, I commanded darkness and confusing upon all their plans, actions, and made void anything they did as well.. shortly the person started to act like any other normal person and he and I had a peaceful rest also now..